When a minute of silence became an answer to a question!

Its one of my hobby to answer the questions asked online. Obviously in selected categories in which I’m interested. Even today when i was doing the same, a question stopped me but I had no answer than a minutes of silence! Because the question was….

“I’m a 24 year-old-male and earn around INR 24 lakh per annum. I’m living in Bengaluru. I’m constantly sad. How should i spend my money to make myself happy?“

I was speechless!! I never knew people would Google for how to spend money and I never thought this can be a question ….seriously!!

To the point “I’m always sad” . There might be a lot of reasons for being sad, but the point is you have mentioned that ‘you are constantly sad’. Along with there are uncountable reason to be happy! Take a break from your daily routine, turn off your computer/lappy, come outside your room and go out for hours… By earning 24 lakhs per annum you might be hving luxurious car with you, go to crowded area not a mall or similars but to a place where middle class peoples live. Get out of your car and be in streets for an hour. See people how they are , how do they live , what do they do for living…  You will find all the answers to your questions for sure! You no need to travel the whole world to view the world of others. Just few minutes are enough but you need to have such view and vision, that’s it and you will get to know the answers to the typical question “how to spend money!!!”

When I go outside, I always used to take some extra penny with me [penny as I’m not earning 24 lakhs/annum!] I take some extra coins with me so that when a needy approaches when we struck at traffic I can give them. I’m sure the money I give to them cannot feed them forever but I can make their hunger little lighter. I’m not supporting begging, it depends on you to choose peoples to give a very little amount from your side. Bringing smile on one’s face makes me happier than anything.

Life is such a big concept, it is much big to be sad but too small to be happy!

Look at the images below… Poverty teaches more than our imagination!

 

This is the world outside our homes! Do you still need reasons to spend your money??

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[images used in this post are not originally my clicks]

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Golconda Fort – Qutub Shahi Dynasty – Hyderabad

Before going to visit the historical places of India’s ancient city Hyderabad, we studied little more about the places, so that we can understand the monuments a lil bit 🙂 At first we decided to visit Golconda Fort, which is located in the western part of Hyderabad city i.e., Ibrahim Bagh, Hyderabad, Telangana.

The street which meets Golconda Fort is still like old city itself. Those older smaller huts and thus finally we reached our destination Golconda Fort.

1. Outer-view of Golconda Fort

2. Outer-view of Golcond Fort

3.Farer view of Main door called Fateh Darwaza, Golconda Fort

4. Door of Golconda Fort

From the outer fort, it took nearly 5 kilometers to reach the fort gate. This gate was opened which made the army of Aurangzeb entered inside the fort.

The first inside view of Golconda fort is slide shown below:

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By looking at the first view we were speechless! Undoubtedly one of most magnificent fortress.

way to Bala hissar

Bala hissar gate

Nearer view of gate bala hissar

 

Architectural marvel, this massive doorway is so wide and high and the door is called Fateh Darwaza, which is the outermost enclosure. It has peacocks and lions at the top of the door. Visitors were clapping  and whistling there under the middle of the arch or dome, the sound will be reverberates which is heard clearly at the hill top pavilion, almost one kilometer away, which served as a warning note in times of danger in kings times.

Mosque of Ibrahim

Ibrahim’s mosque, a typical Qutub shahi mosque with arcades and two minarets is situated in the upper part of Golcond fort.

Shahzadi mahal

Shahzadi mahal

After watching it,  we moved towards steps of the Bala Hissar, there are number of steps and the records tells that there are almost 360 steps… Oops!

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It was truly awesome view from top of the hill, fresh air, utmost silence… one can see whole hyderabad itseems, this might be kings idea too, to view his whole dynasty… wow! We did lots of photo clicking, as much we clicked, we felt like let us take one more 😀 😀 It took almost one hour to get down all those steps.

History:

Ibrahim Quli Qutb Shah was the 4th Shahan-e Qutb dynasty Sultan. He ruled for 30 years from 1550 to 1580. He was the son of the 1st Sultan Quli Qutb-ul-Mulk and ascended the throne after returning from Vijayanagar after his brother Jamsheed died. Ibrahim was good in wars,arts and cultures. He repaired the Golconda fort. In 1687 A.D. Abdullah khan Panni has opened fateh dharwaza, which made Aurangazeb to enter the fort. Then he left the fort to ruin.

 

Crowd Screaming!!

It was almost 2 pm, I had my lunch bellyful and i was about to sleep for a while. Suddenly I heard crowd of people screaming so loudly. I ran to my balcony and started peeping as i my home is in third floor. But i found no one there such as screaming! I was little scared to open the main door, because I was not sure what was happening outside. I got a call from my neighbor(from same floor), she was also frightened, she asked me to open the main door, we both decided to open the doors together! Yes! we did it! People were screaming so loudly, my neighbor told “it might downstairs let’s go and see”. We went downstairs, people from second floor were also going downstairs, we followed them.

Yes, it was in our building only, first floor! As it was Sunday everyone gathered there. People were murmuring there like a 22 years old lady has attempted suicide by drinking phenol!!! We were like PHENOL?? YEEWWWW!! Her family memebrs took her to hospital and we came back to our homes.

Even after coming home i was thinking, how one can drink phenoooooool??!! yuck! Committing suicide?? I don’t why people commit suicide? What do they feel? I’m are they so eager to make others to feel their absence?? How they will get to know if someone misses them after their death?? Hectic! I don’t understand 😦 Killing themselves?? For what??

Actually the girl who attempted suicide was a double graduate! What is the use of all that schooling she went? What is her parents fault? This is the one which we saw directly, but there are hundreds like this! They may think that they have a right to die but no. No one has the right to kill or kill themselves! They might be thinking that its their life, but directly or indirectly life is linked with many others of your family. Parents have brought you up from child to an adult, these long years! So, seriously, no one has the right to kill themselves! Every problem has a solution, suicide doesn’t come under the solution to any problem or pain! Sharing problems with others lighten your feelings and being lighter you might find a true solution to it.

With God’s grace that girl has reached home safely after two days of medical treatments!  In these two days we were just thinking about this hectic act of the young lady!

And I started doing my daily routine after two days, while pouring detergent liquid to washing machine, I thought it would be better for me to keep all my detergent liquid and phenol bottles inside the home instead of keeping in balcony 😀 Its too dangerous if mentally stressed or depressed one finds my phenol bottle here and  OMG!!! NOOOO! Save everyone! Let me keep all detergent liquid and phenol inside, for the betterment of the society! 😛

writer: breathmath

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Tie The (k)not!

I still remember! That was

With not so heartily but somehow i convinced myself to agree with my parents. Are you thinking for what? Haha! I comprised to get engaged to the one whom my parents showed me. I had some disagreeing feeling like is he the man made for me? I was not happy getting engaged to him. Not only to him but i was not at all ready to get engaged to anyone! I was not mentally prepared! But kept shut my mouth, as there was no choice! Because I live in rural areas of India! Where at particular age, your surrounding expects you to get marry! Or else your parents are pointed by society for many questions! By looking all these i decided it would be better to get marry than leaving my parents to answer these critics! I shared all these with my best friend, she also had no words than “DON’T WORRY”!

As I’m fashion designer, I designed my own dress. It was golden color lehenga. Even if i was not happy, but craze of designing made me complete one dress in 10 hours, that’s from 7 pm to  5 am. Me and ma mamma did not sleep, whole night we were stitching, mamma as she was so happy for me! Me as craze of designing! My uncles and aunts came my home in the morning, on 27th January, that was my engagement day! Everyone was praising for my dress. Even i was happy at that moment, i’m still not sure whether i was happy for that ceremony or just because i was looking pretty awesome! However, I had smile on my face.

My parents and my uncles were just busy in pre-engagement ceremony, preparing food, decorating home, looking over seating arrangements for breakfast and lunch for guests. I got freshen up, wore my lehenga, when i came in front of my mamma she had tears of happiness in her eyes and my aunt whispered “Masha-Allah”. Even i was happy, because all others were happy. My best friend and my neighbors came home along with their family. It was somewhat, 11 pm when bridegroom and his family members came my home. I was so scared. Even now, while typing my heart is beating so fastly, my eyes are wet. On that day, i told with my friend that, “Muje ajeebsa darr lag raha hai, jaise kuch galat ho raha hai “. She replied me, “Don’t worry, nothing will be wrong!”

When bridegroom’s sisters and in-laws, his mamma came near to me, all other (my sissy, my friend, neighbor) none was there near to me. I was scared a lot. A single voice came from the crowd, “Masha Allah”. I felt little comfortable! Then my uncle came there and asked them to have breakfast and told me to take them with me to have breakfast. There i saw Bridegroom was standing. I had no expression on my face as it was arranged marriage, i had no feelings towards him/his family members. I sat with his family member and finished my breakfast too.

Then the actual engagement ceremony has began.It was almost 1 pm. They started whispering with one another and unfortunately, I heard one of them. She was telling, “Sunathaa ladki choti hai [I heard that girl is short!]”. I looked at them, they had lot of questions on their face. I had no idea of their intention, even now! One lady came to me asked “did u wear heels?” I said “yes!” and being so bubbly, by smiling i showed her how heel it was! I truly had no idea, what they thought, i was being so friendly, because, it was those days, was just going to college, mingling with friends, my life was so different than being a bride.

Bridegroom’s sister started telling “Poori janam chaubees gante chappal pehenke toh nahi rahegi na”.  I was just blank, my eyes were eagerly searching my sissy, my friend or any of my family member! But i find any of them nearby! Even after saying these sentences, they started clicking my photos with bridegroom’s sister. They wanted me to smile to their photos even after by making me hear these rude sentences. Eventually, i failed to smile at one moment and they found a drop of tear on my cheek. Truly, i couldn’t resist my feelings! Truly I couldn’t!

And by looking at a drop of tear, they started telling “Might be she is not happy, we think she dint like our bridegroom, so she might be crying etc”. I felt like darkness has covered my eyes! A drop of tear became a big issue! All my family members went and started talking bridegroom’s family members. I was sitting far away from them with my sissy. One lady came and told me to wear saree (Indian traditional wear). Me and my sissy went to our room, to dress up again. My friend and neighbor came followed us!

When i came out of my room, bridegroom’s family members where standing out of my home! I was so shocked! Even i agreed to my parents to get marry of their choice, I dint agree to break up on engagement ceremony itself! I dint compromise for this kind of shame which they did to me! I’m not a toy that anyone can come and do such arrangement, invite my friends and my family members, neighbors and can go without getting engaged! I have not given permission to anyone to break my feelings!

My sissy and my friend told me that, bridegroom was convincing his parents not to do! Not to leave a girl like this! He was telling them it seems, it wouldn’t be right to do so!
But he couldn’t stop them from doing these nonsense! I was standing near my window, behind the curtain and watching everything! They seated in their cars and ……

I saw my mamma turning and coming inside the home. I truly couldn’t see her her. All my pain was visible on her, her face was mirror of my soul.Her eyes where filled, lips were shivering! I saw her broken for the first time in 23years! I went to her, hugged her so tight because i had no courage to see her face and told her “Almighty has decided everything Don’t worry mamma”. Ma and my uncle also hugged me back, told me “be like this kiddo”.

Even if i act like being courageous outside, I was totally broken inside! Phone calls started  with bunch of questions! Like Why? what happened? Did she say anything wrong to them?  Did said something rudely? Is she having head weight of being double graduate! and many more! It has became a black dot on her life, what will be her future now, who will marry her? I was hearing all these sitting there silently.

There was total silence in my home! In the night I asked my uncle, “Uncle, do you think its a big black dot on my future? Why this happened with me? What was my fault? What will be my future now?” He hugged me and replied, “Beta, if you ask like this, what do i say, i have answers to your questions, when I’m seeing you from day you were born! I carried you in my hands, now you are 23 years old, we have seen and been with you each and every moment, if you ask me like this what do I do, But remember one thing that, the food which they had today in our house was theirs, so almighty has sent them to our home, dont worry, we all still love you and we will forever!”

Those words strengthened me! Prayers to my parents! You are such gems that only ocean can have! that’s me! strongest inside! For you Mr. Engagement guy you are nothing in front of me, my life didn’t stop! Thanks to you for making me realize, how strong I’m in real.

Today 25th July, 2016, its been nearly two and a half years! and I’m a wife of a human being! Whom he never cared for my physical appearance, My dresses never change his feelings for me! I’m so lucky for what happened  on 27th January, 2014, if i got engaged i wouldn’t have married to a man, whom i have married now! Love you Hubby! For being reality of my dreams! Once again Love you Hubby!

Writer: breathmath